tiME

My parents took my kiddos for two whole weeks!! Today is day number four. Call me a bad mom, but I'd be lying if said it was "horrible". "Don't I miss them?" you ask. Sure I do. I also missed me! It is now very apparent that I do not get nearly enough down time. I get up in the morning and begin my days with cleaning, feeding children, laundry and then go to school. Once I am home, it is "nack" time, or dinner as the rest of the world refers to it, baths, stories and teeth and the ever dreaded bedtime.
It wasn't until this much needed (and appreciated) break that I realized just how worn out I actually was. It is not fair to my kids or to myself to live the way I was living. I cannot be the mom I want to be for my kids while never getting down time.
So for this week that I am off of school and "Mom Duty" I have cleaned, re-arranged my daughter's room and also discovered that I actually love working outside getting muddy, gardening and what not. I have gone to bed when I want and only had to worry about my husband once he's off of work. I have also found the time (whenever I wanted) to play around on the computer, read, or watch t.v. It's been great! A little weird, but wonderful!
You would think that doing things for yourself would be an easy task. However, for me, not so much. I always say I am going to do something just for me and then life happens. Someone else needs or wants something and I cave. I have already blogged about forcing 15 minutes a day of "me time" and that only lasted a few days. Not that it's a bad thing to want to do things for others. God tells us to put others before ourselves. However I think in order for me to do that productively, and not half hearted, I will have to find a way to schedule Myself back into my "To Do List".
They say it takes thirty days to form a habit. However, I have only ten days! A third of what is "normally" required.
So here's to "Mack Time" as a friend of mine refers to it!