emotions

My baby woke up today (ok, he's 3, but a baby to me) and his eyes were swollen shut and his left ear was swollen. His eyes had been swollen before, just not this badly. It doesn't hurt him, but it sure looks like it does. I took him into the doctor and they gave him a steroid shot, a scrip for a steroid and one for an antihistimine. He is looking a little better, but very whiney and clingy. Needless to say, I did not go to school today. Fortunately, my teacher is wonderful and told me just to do research via internet on Surrealism. (Yes, I am aware of the fact that blogging is not considered research...)
I don't know what is going on, but things feel like they are spinning pretty fast around me. In one month, 4 people have passed away and seven are in the hospital, a few never to be released. I don't know why, but it is finally getting me down. I am usually the one that can just shrug it off. Not this time. I guess I have to allow myself to feel. To be sad about it. Then I can move on. It is seriously cramping my style. My creativity is blocked, and I don't feel rested. The infamous "kink" in my neck is bugging me again, letting me know I am carrying around too much junk and I need to dump it.
I know that my Heavenly Father is in control. I know that he knows all of my thoughts, feelings and emotions. I also know that I am not to live my life by my emotions. I always feel weak when I give into them and allow myself to cry or feel down. I think if I was smart, I would get over that fact and be able to move on from things a lot quicker! So, this is me allowing myself to be sad and feel all of the horrible junk that is floating around outside my little bubble world. Or does that make IN my little bubble world, now? If only we could take a body flush to flush out all of the crap that is clogging my creative pores and kinking my neck! haha