From Worthless to Worthwhile

I'm fat. I haven't always been, but I am. I was talking with a friend today about my 6 pound slump. I can't seem to lose more than 6 pounds, no matter what I do. She sparked a familiar question, "Why?". My answer, after asking myself that question for years now, came plainly. What if I do lose the weight, and I am still not good enough? Things have happened in my past that left me feeling like I am not enough. Well, Jesus gave me something this evening. I'm not. I never will be good enough for any earthly anything. Ever. You see, I used to live a meaningless life. Did you notice the past tense? Used to, as in no longer. Now, I have a King. A beautiful, merciful King who died for me! Little worthless ME! He filled me with love. He gave my life meaning! He listens to me when I need someone to listen. Holds me when I need to be held. He sends me the most beautiful gifts; songs in the birds, a sunset, the various aromas of flowers and herbs. He has blessed me with wonderful family and friends. He constantly provides for me. He paid the debt against me and set me free! He picked me up off of the ground of a world that has no life and gave me a kingdom! I am better than enough because He lives within me. He has cleansed me and forgiven me of all of my mistakes. I no longer have to carry the guilt. After all that He has done, He wants the burden of my guilt, too! I didn't get that before. I knew it, but I didn't get it. I get that now!
So, whether I ever do lose more than 6 pounds doesn't really matter to me anymore. God loves me. He created me, breathed life into me and gave me purpose for being! Despite what others think of me, I am good enough for a King to die for me, so that I may have life! Why waste that gift? He took me from worthless, and made me worthwhile!