God is BIG

After spending some much needed time in prayer and the Word, asking God to please help me lay this down at His feet (and leave it there), He blessed me with a friendly face. A friend of mine has a little girl (not yet one year old) who was born with a hole in her heart. She is a beautiful little girl and by the grace of our Almighty Father is alive and well. My friend said something to me when I told her about my son's condition. She said she would pray for him, "and nobody can tell me God isn't big!". I know it sounds silly. Duh! I know God is big. But I had forgotten just how big! He is healing her daughter and has amazed the doctors at just how well this little angel is doing.
I realized that my son is not mine. He has been loaned to me by my God. God has blessed me, amazingly through him. Ok, so he has some trials to face and hills to climb, but he is alive. I am blessed to be able to administer his meds, take his blood pressure, monitor his diet, bathe him and tuck him in. In his own bed! Every night. The most invasive thing he has had to endure is an I.V. and a few nights away from home. I don't want this to sound like it is a simple case of allergies, but really, in God's eyes, just how big is this? God created him. He knows exactly what is wrong and where. He knows the results of the blood test and the rest of our lives.
How quickly we forget just how big God is! He loves us and shows it to us every day, several times a day. When we forget to trust, I mean completely trust Him with all that we have we lose sight of those blessings. Today, for the first day in a long time, I am at peace. I felt such joy today! All because I completely and whole heartily trust God with my life! All of my life!
We can either walk through life contemplating which step to take and worrying about whether or not the ground we are walking on is strong enough to hold our weight, or we can look at God and walk by faith. "If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all." ~Isaiah 7:9