Rubies, Schmoobies

Lately I feel like I have been stripped of everything. God is all that I have. And you know what, I am learning that He is enough for me! It has taken a few "vacations in the desert" to learn to trust Him. To rely completely on Him and not on my family, friends or other sources. This storm that I am going through is difficult, and don't get me wrong, there are plenty of opinions, suggestions and advice columns on how to handle it. The difference is that somewhere along the way, I am learning to take each with a grain of salt. To weigh each option and then take them to God. Let Him sort them out for me. At times I have been too bogged to think clearly. During these times, I have gone to God and sought His clarity. It's amazing how some alone time with the Lord will clear your head of all the fleshy things flying around in there. Granted, He didn't say, "This is what I am doing, so just sit there and be quiet." It was far greater than that. He has given me peace and clarity. Not a definite answer or direction, but His face! I no longer worry over where this is going to end up, because I know it is in God's hands.
You know, I have been praying every day that my husband would not be able to escape God's word. That he would be surrounded by it and that he would at least recognize it, if not be receptive to it. My leader for my BSF class brought my son's and my homework by and my son's is entitled, "The Impact of Words in Your Child's Life". I left it lying around the house and found him reading it. Sunday at church, our Pastor talked about the people who talk the talk, but don't walk the walk. He went over Ephesians 4 and how we are to build one another up, not tear each other down. I don't know if Anthony made the connection or not. I know that God's word does not fall upon deaf ears, I just hope Anthony's heart is not as hearing impaired as his ears.
All of this to say, that when you are stripped of everything you have inside of you, leaving you only with God, let go. Let go of the problem and all that is connected to it. His grace is sufficient. He is faithful, and the ride upon his wings is far greater than any thing I have ever experienced. Is there still pain? Sure, sometimes. But change is painful. Growth is painful. Let go and cling to the Lord. Know that the end result will be worth far more than rubies!